I recently wrote a piece thinking about where we’re naturally situated—inside of ourselves or out in the world.
But I wanted to add something, thanks to a wise comment I received—that when we suffer trauma outsides of ourselves, we may hide inside ourselves when really, it’s our natural desire to be situated out in the world.
And I realized that I was probably once an outside-situated person, but bc of trauma I hid inside myself. And yet, bc I had internalized so much toxicity from the outside world, inside my body didn’t feel good either.
So it felt like I had no home in my body and no home in the world. Both felt like places I wanted to escape from. And I spent a lot of my efforts trying to do so.
I’d say much of my healing journey has been about my journey back home. Home, back into my body.
And once I started to feel at home in my body, I practiced taking baby steps out into the world, to share myself and connect with others from a space that felt a lot more comfortable.
-JLK
